There still isn't a moment that goes by I don't think of you - seriously it's THAT often.
On Christmas Eve I was having a glass of wine with my mom and preparing dishes for the Christmas Day feast ( you know she cooks WAAAAY too much food) and we were talking about the time you and me had to go to the store 4 times because we messed up Anna's jello thing she loves so much. Mom and I laughed so hard about that Christmas Eve.
I've been missing you a lot lately. Maybe it's the holidays, maybe it's because your 30th birthday is coming up next month, maybe it's because SBJ is getting married this weekend, or maybe it's because I just miss you that much - I try and try to think about all the fun times - all the laughs all the memories and all the silly stories....which inevitably works 99% of the time to clear up the sadness...but sometimes I am just sad.
I saw your family in November at the Brain Tumor Walk - so good to see them. I know you know this, but everyone is doing so well. I miss my second set of parents about as much as I miss you- but I know I will get to see them soon.
Today is your sisters birthday - the first thing I did was text her when I got up to wish her a happy day! I still think of her as my little sister and since you aren't here to wish her happy bday I did it for the both of us.
I'm sitting here at work 4 days before SBJ's wedding. And, although, I'm super happy for her I can't help but be sad that you aren't here to celebrate with us. I'm going to OKC tomorrow for work then it's over to Tulsa to start the festivities. You know SBJ only does things top notch and this wedding is no different. It oozes SBJ through and through.
When Amber and I wake up on Saturday morning it won't be the same drinking mimosa's without you. Or getting our hair and make up done without you or walking down the aisle to support SBJ and you not being there...but like all things since 6/4/09 I will get through it knowing that you are guiding us with your gentle kind spirit.
I'm continually thinking of you and the day we spent together on your wedding day. Hair, makeup, chick fil a, and a freezing cold day in December with awesome pictures.
I love you BFF - and miss you dearly.
|Me, Jess (BFF), Sarah (SBJ)|
|Me and Jess|
|Mom, Me, Jess, Stephanie (Jess' mom)|