Overwhelmed....

I'm feeling very very very overwhelmed lately.  It takes a lot for me to feel this way - stress isn't something that consumes me 99.99999999999% of the time. 

But lately - work, life, blogging, training etc has become too much and I'm feeling like I'm buried under a mound of never ending to-do lists, bills, schedules, demands, expectations, etc.

I'm a planner.  I like routine.  I love lists, and there is no better feeling to me than crossing off items on my multiple lists.  At any one time you can probably find two to three hand written lists in my purse, one shopping list on my iphone and another work list on my blackberry.  I am also a compulsive flagger in my outlook and I like to know what is expected of me and a reasonable time frame to complete expectations.  Sometimes it’s sickening – but it works for me and I usually leave work feeling like I’m not coming back to a shit storm the next day.

I try to be the same way at home but on a more relaxed level.  I enjoy cleaning one room at a time and making sure you can eat off of it when I’m done.  (But let’s be honest it stays that way for about 2.5 seconds with three dogs) – I like to strategically pick up around the house during the week to keep a tidy home and laundry done….. I like my house to feel lived in – definitely not museum-esqe.  If you break something – it’s ok as long as it’s not my pottery from Cabo J

Anyway – over the last two weeks stress has started to mount in my work.  We are super busy right now, which is a good thing, don’t get me wrong; but there isn’t enough hours in the day.  This week I’ve been at the office until 7 or 8 almost every night – which puts a huge hangup in my training….which makes me stressed out b/c I can’t get it all in, which makes me feel like I’m going to be totally unprepared for NOLA 70.3, which makes me stress more, which makes me tired and makes me want to go to bed at 10pm. 

I try really hard to not let it bother me – that – it is what it is and it will all get done…. But it’s too much lately.  Something has got to give pretty soon.  I know once I get my house fixed up and on the market that will greatly help.  Knowing that soon I won’t be paying a mortgage for an empty house will take a great deal of pressure off me.  Bill said yesterday I could get a house keeper….. Very excited about that.

Today has been good though. I’m leaving here at a reasonable time.  I want to go get a swim in at the gym and hopefully spin a little…no classes tonight but I wouldn’t mind hopping on the spin bike for a little ride.  I’m fine with spending my Friday night at the gym…..

That will make me feel better – and maybe a massage – hopefully I can schedule that tomorrow J

Monday starts a new week – a new time to start over… I think that’s why I like Monday’s; it gives you a fresh new opportunity to start over every 7 days.

Have a great weekend y’all…… I promise I’ll be back to normal come Monday!